Yeah, I can relate to it a lot. I also have GAD and have been fighting against Major Depression Disorder. Not very long ago I’d keep repeating this phrase: “I wish I could sleep and never wake up.” It wasn’t like I wanted to end my life, I just wanted to stop suffering. I wanted to be unconscious. The only time the pain seemed to cease was when I slept.
Well, messed up things happened and I ended up making an attempt on my own life. Since then, I never said it again. When I faced nothingness straight in the eyes, I learned to value consciousness and make the most out of my waking moments. It doesn’t mean I suffered less or that my problems went away, but yeah. I no longer think like that.
I’m still tired of fighting a battle that seems to never end, but I value each waking moment.
Unfortunately, nothing I’ve said will really help you a lot, I assume. I guess I’m trying to say that there is more to consciousness than suffering, even though sometimes we can only focus on the bad. There needs to be a switch of perception. How do you do that? I have no idea!
I wish you all the best!
Thank you so much
And I’m sorry about what you’re dealing with. It must be hard.
But what if the source and cause of the GAD and depression is a person. That’s what I’m dealing with right now.
I was silent and too nice for too long (10 years). It’s time that I find my voice again. It’s time to show them my original spirit, the one that was present before I met them and before they crushed slowly.
I’m finally fighting back =)
you. right here, just opened my eyes, I’ve also wanted to go unconscious for such a long time because of this battle that just doesn’t seems to have any ending but now, you, my dear, just happened to be the person alive in the world
I’m really happy for you!!! <3
Keep fighting! Don’t let anyone take you down! I’ve had people contribute to my anxiety and depression so I really know how it feels.
I hope you can grow even stronger every day! Remember you’re never fighting alone.
Ohh thank you so much!
I can just speak for what I’ve been through and I don’t wish my past to anyone! But everything bad makes me learn a lesson, and I’ve learned many lessons by the mistakes that I will not repeat ever again!
Life is too special to waste with unconsciousness. I hope that you’ll always find strength to keep fighting!
Seriously, thank you so much, i will cherish every moment from now on
Oh… uhmmm… sorry? Oops?
Idek what to say.,