Understable. I never quite saw it as tokenism, but I always thought of it as every person in this story is their own version of f*cked up and I wanted to create characters who did the wrong thing.
I wanted to create a book to make people angry at Elijah. I don’t want people to be fooled by his seeming innocence. There is a dangerously unstable young man behind a lifetime of coddling. I think it was always intentional to keep these people tethered together and to see them break and twist and fall apart and like idiots come back to each other and make things worse. I don’t condone it, I don’t like any sane person should follow in these characters footsteps, but I will admit it is fun to stir pissed emotions in my readers who were very furious with Elijah for his handling of internal guilt to go so far as to try and burn Haydn, a man who honestly, does not deserve it. And people understood Irina’s anger. In making people hate Elijah, I want them to love Irina and Haydn more.
I know it’s a dark place to be. I understand many won’t understand why I am so adamantly hoping people hate him, even I partially don’t know. He began as a poor reflection of myself with his indecisiveness, anxiety, and emotions. He became the man of my hatred. I love him like a son, but I hate the man he’s become and it shows. I wanted Irina to hit him. I wanted Abraham to lose his shit only to feel bad simply because of his attachment issues and genuine love for the boy. I wanted Haydn to try and be the rational one, the one to be the voice of reason only to have it thrown in his face. But these people are all idiots and they keep coming back like idiots. They refuse to see the truth that the readers already understand…that peace will only come if Elijah is gone.
I hope it clarifies some things.